Across the universe

My body is a cavern

A hollow vacuum, hungry

For elusive contentment

I am ravenous

I search

Cry out for you

I haunt you

And illuminate you

With light

Like perfect white stars

Pulsing around my head

Light you sent years ago

Finally reaching

The deepest part of me

No sooner than you came to me

You are gone

And I may never believe it's true

Why won't you let me say goodbye?

Instead you let me empty out

Like a breath into the atmosphere

I'll travel a million miles

To reach your supernova

I'll find your black hole heart

Only to be swallowed

Left again with nothing

But the insatiable hunger

For

more...

How must it feel
To be me
Older and still disconnected
Alcoholic and still unsuccessful
At so much in life

We are the same
So much I inherited from you
That I feel compelled to return to you
And tell you that everything
Turned out okay
In the end

I am you without your disease
You without your regrets
And disconnection
You with an education
A happy spouse
And future prospects
I am you without your roots
To a barren land
I am you with everything
You could ever imagine
Wanting in this life

You can put your faith in me
You can rest your hopes on me
I will carry your burdens
Along with my own
And I will take flight anyway

I am forging myself
Strong, folded steel
I will run
Until the me I always was
Melts away
I will become new
And strong
Like an artificial heart

You will not find
Who I was
Scattered along this road
I'm running
And you will not catch me
None of you will ever
Catch me
Because I will not grow tired
I will not fall
Again

And I'll never let you know me
Never let any of you know me
Or think you understand me
Again
I'll be on guard
Watchful soldier
I will run
Until you all forget
Who I never was

Independence Day

I discover myself
Buried
Suffocating under heavy sands
Choking on the tides
You bring to me
Try to water me like a garden
I'm an orchid
And these waters only wilt
My arid heart

You are blue
Oh, my love
You surround
And tie me down
With love
Like silly-string
Blue, my love
Like the absurd eyes
You cannot leave

I want to end every poem
With these lines
So true

At night
She hears the sounds of fire
Soldiers practice to fight wars
And it sounds like the 4th of July